By Lil Angel, I meant my niece Qystina.
Now, I want to share a video with you as I've only realized that I had it.
Here's how I found it. My sister told me that her digi cam is broken (Qys was being notty), so I thinking hmm maybe I should offer her mine (lend it to her), cos I don't really use mine anymore. Nowadays, everyone has a camera, so there is no point for me to bring mine out cos I know the others will take photos with theirs. Why not share? Furthermore, I have my boyfrend's cam. if worse come to worse. So, before actually giving it to my sister, I thought of deleting all the old pix in the camera, only to discover this memorable moment of Qystina. Truth to told, I miss her...I miss her a lot. If you don't know me, I've never lived on my own before and this is my first time. Well done to me! I do see her a lot, but not lately, work is really keeping me busy! I just wish I'm growing an actual money tree in my room, water it everyday, keeping it alive so lil baby dollar bills can start blooming (well in this case it's euros). But heck, face the reality, it can never come true. Only dreams and fantasy.
Continue on with my story earlier, I've lived with my sister since I landed in Dublin. At that time, she wasn't married yet - and now she's got two kids (2nd one just recently). How time really flies! When I was to lazy to work, I stayed home (during summer hols) and as a good aunt, took care of the lil one. I can recall every moment I spent with Qystina, all the joy, laugh, anger, sillyness etc, up til today. How can you forget someone you've always taken care of right? YOU CAN'T! Anyway, this is a funny one, the day that I had to move to my own place, when my sister dropped me off, waited til the car drove away, I burst into tears like a crazy woman. I don't know what got into me. Obviously, I felt empty cos I know I'd be on my own, and Qystina isn't around to bug me, or even my sister to bug me. I knew it will be a big change for me. I took it slowly each day by day. Not staying with my sister anymore cos she's moved far from my work and college, also I think this is good for her as a family to not have any other individuals staying with them. This will bring them all closer as it had make me closer to my sister.
So as I pressed play for the video, there was this lil one, only learning how to walk, still inbalance, looking clueless and not being loud like she is today. I just cried. No words to describe my emotions. Oh so many emotions runninh thru my mind and filtering in my heart. I just wish I could see Qystina and her lil brother Qimi everyday if not every weekend. Just take some time and preview the vid. It'd be worth watching.
peace and <3,